No Sugar Coating

Trying to load a photo (been trying all day) is not working. Lots of things are not working. For me, for you, for just about everybody in the world. I may not have Clorox wipes, but I still feel lucky. We have a home, we have food, we are able to pay our bills. So many can’t.

Still, lucky as I am, life is difficult now. I’d like to just Stay Home, but my dad is ill, though not with coronavirus, and needs my help. I’m driving him to another doctor appointment tomorrow. I hope we don’t have to go to the drugstore again. I need to find the courage to tell him I can’t take him anywhere else. Doctor or pharmacy. That’s it.

My dad lives alone. He has masks and a grocery store next to his condo, so he’ll be okay for food. We think we have a medication problem under control. Al and I don’t know what will happen when we leave in May if Dad refuses to come with us. Mom is in Michigan, our home is in Michigan, and so far, Dad is refusing to leave Florida. Mom says there is no way she is coming to Florida.

My heart is breaking, but not literally. It’s beating. I’m not sick. My children, grandchildren, and parents are all well. We have a month or so to try to convince Dad to leave Florida with us. If he gets the virus, there is no family here for him. Here’s how I’m coping: eating sugar (but not wheat). So ice cream and potato chips but no cookies. Drinking wine. But not too much. Taking my anxiety meds. Also, reading Regency romance novels.

I try not to watch too much television news but I read the Washington Post every day. We watch the local news for Covid updates. We watch national news and sometimes my favorite cable news show. Deadline White House with Nicole Wallace. We just binged Ozark.

I’ve slacked off on meditation and yoga since Dad has needed so much help this past week. It depletes me. I know I’m not taking great care of myself, but I’m being safe, and I’m doing the best I can. I’m writing this post. I wasn’t sure I’d be able to this week.

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  1. This is a strange time for all of us. A friend of mine (long-time experienced yoga teacher) said years of yoga/meditation practice is stored in our cells and can be called upon as needed. Knowing I have this reserve made me feel better:) Be gentle with yourself. ❤️

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  2. Hang in there, Cindy. Parents can be stubborn, clinging to their independence at all cost, not realizing the worry & frustration it causes to others. Take care of yourself. Michigan is facing a horrible week. I’m hiding with my cat for the duration.

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    1. Hi Barb! Glad you are able to stay home with your cat. I am hoping this is last time to doctor with dad today. I really just want to stay home too. I am sorry Michigan is so bad right now. 😢 I want to come home! ❤️

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  3. Hopefully he’ll come around. If not, duck tape and tie him up if push comes to shove… just kidding. Hang in there, he might still change his mind. Or maybe he’ll change yours and you’ll end up staying in Florida instead. Stay safe.

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  4. So sorry about your dad. No need to sugar coat. Things are rough for a lot of people. I’m binge watching home improvement shows and overeating for sure. Keeping in touch with friends who live alone – trying to keep their spirits up.

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        1. 🤣 Branson seems like a great place to settle, sort of like my St Pete, I worry how businesses will survive. Retirement, starting over in a new place, this virus does seem to want us to reflect on next steps. Your website is lovely but I couldn’t find comments…my internet is acting weird, like it has a virus too.

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        2. Thank you for the compliment on my website. Still trying to figure out the technical parts. Thanks for letting me know you couldn’t find comments. I’ll have to check into it.

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        3. Geri, I was impressed you did that all yourself. It’s really lovely. I have a woman who designs and sizes my headers, plus Word Press expert who gives things a polish once or twice a year & I still can’t get it all together. Always a work in progress.

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